| You Really Want To Know Why? |
| For Some odd reason, you folks keep asking me why I don't/won't date. Why I work 12 hours a day, seven days a week and avoid social situations like they were vectors of The Plague! Why I run home after my Gigs and toss out the truck window, all the phone numbers given to me at these parties. |
| There are a couple of you, my exes, who still read these. I'm going to skip over the fact that you two burned my heart to cinders. If Mrs Right "ever" did show up on my door step, you gals messed me up so badly that I'm really not any good to even myself let alone some good hearted, God loving Christian woman. But the past is just that, gone the way of the flushed toilet just a few minutes ago! So let's skip that, and move onto some of the non-Spiritual reasons: The Number One Reason is that I am an "Attention Junkie". God gave me an emotional gas tank so big and made me to run about 1 mile per gallon. So I need this thing filled many times a day. To women, that makes me appear clingy, needy and less desirable because they want men who act as if they could really care less. Number Two - I am a bit too focused and intense: I tend to return that attention given to me three fold. That makes me a smotherer. I focus my attention primarily on them! Second only to my devotion to God, I spend my waking (and sleeping) hours thinking about, writing love letters to and spending my free time with those I love. This spotlight (lighthouse) seems to give women that same expression rabbits have when they are caught in the headlights of a speeding car in the middle of the night. Women don't seem to understand that Christian men, while we have our own lives and interests, have the number one responsibility and desire for their women! Number Three - Baggage! Because of numbers one and two, I have a ton of baggage. A lack of one or both of those two makes me feel as if I am less of a man than I am. I've a desire to be everything to my love. If I cannot provide all the love, attention, friendship, secrets, companionship, etc, etc, etc that she needs, I feel like a failure. This baggage that has accumulated in my closet has caused me not to trust women, not that I don't trust them exactly, but I am skitterish/nervous around them. At some point, I have the fear of being tossed out like last weeks garbage because I over did it again in another relationship Because I am too dependable/predictable. Too nice and loyal. Blah blah blah! . Now for the Spiritual: Matthew 19:11 Jesus replied, "Not everyone can accept this word, but only those to whom it has been given. For some are eunuchs because they were born that way; others were made that way by men; and others have renounced marriage because of the kingdom of heaven. The one who can accept this should accept it." I know that God said it was not good for a man to be alone. We are also told in the New Testament that it is better to remain single, for those able. I wake up and give my attention to the Lord. I live my life, 24/7 for the Lord. Both of my jobs and even when I go home, I spend hours "working" from home and more online spreading the Good News of Jesus. Then again, Mrs. Right will be just as focused on God as I am. We will be one flesh and walk all our days with Him. I understand that, but until Mrs. Right comes knocking on my door, willing to walk with me with Christ, until she shows up and can dish out as good as she gets with all my attention and smothering, I sit here a single man, with no end to my celibacy and no wife and children in my future. Like every red blooded man, I want those things, but I also want the Lord and if I cannot share that desire, if I have too many needs and too much baggage, I will be sitting here, focusing on Christ, waiting for her to knock at my door, but I will not get too excited about what will probably never happen. |
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| So, folks, in a very big nutshell, that is why I don't/won't date. Why I stay single and why when y'all invite me to be social, I find every excuse I can to avoid that. I appreciate all your efforts to "set me up" with good Christian women you know and I appreciate that these women set aside time for these "surprise" blind dates. But Mrs. Right will someday come knocking on my door and it will not be because of any of our efforts, but all in her own good time. At the urging of the Spirit. If not, don't worry about me, folks, I have Jesus in my life. He is more than enough of a BrideGroom for the whole Body. Besides, if Mrs. Right showed up in my life, who would fix all of your computers? Who would work the holidays for y'all? Who would be there, 24/7 when you needed him? She would take precedence over y'all. You have to first ask God's will then her will before I could leave the house at 2am and bring the stations back on air! Ha Ha Ha Ha Folks, there are only three people on this globe who want me married off, my mother, Mrs. Right and deep down inside of me, Me! Y'all know better than to push for an answer from me. When you do get me to talk, I don't shut up. Ask me what time it is and I'll tell you first how to build the clock! Ok, enough rambling and I know, "Too Much Information, Porter!" Until Next Time.... Any More Questions? Email Me... |
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